Kyler demonstrating his ninja-like meditating skills at Duke Gardens.  (Jaden also demonstrated her yoga skills, balancing in a lovely tree pose on a rock at the shallow end of the pond… uh oh…  fortunately the shallow end!  And fortunately it was a warm day and she dried off quick.)

I’ve got an awesome therapist who helps me deal with the sadness and stress in the adoption process.  She sent me to an 8 week meditation program, but I only made it 4 weeks before I was so stressed out I couldn’t handle it.  I know I need to do something to improve my ability to handle uncertainly in my life, since it looks like there’s going to be more of it and not less.  And I don’t want to disappoint my therapist by being lame and not trying hard enough.  But I think I need to start over.  I’m so exhausted from being sad that if somebody handed me a baby right this minute I don’t know what I would even say.  That’s not good, is it?  I need to get my feet back under me.